Ditch the Karma Chameleon and Become a Karma Butterfly!

What I love about the meaning of "Karma Chameleon" by Culture Club is that if you aren't true to yourself and act like how you feel, then you get "karma-justice". It's nature's way of paying you back. You're editing yourself to please people. Dang, Boy George, that's deep. Another reason why I love this song is they borrowed the "karma chameleon" phrase from Toots and the Maytals, from the song "In the Dark". It also has what I'm hoping is a Riddler from Batman reference.

We've all made some poor choices and at times compromised ourselves one way or another. I'm definitely not an exception. My ego has gotten the best of me and totally came back to bite me in the ass. I've gone after a guy a friend was interested in even though I myself didn't really care much for, just to create unnecessary competition. I've done my fair share of not saying nice things to people. Did I feel good about doing all of those things? At the time, maybe. I've lost some friends that way, maybe even respect from others because of poor choices I've made. Tying back to last week's post about learning how to say no, doing things out of feeling like there is an obligation, out of guilt, is also lying to yourself. You'll have to pay for that, too.

I don't feel like I'm any better than anyone, but I do feel like I'm more aware of and am working to be more mindful of my words and actions. I think it's better to acknowledge that I've been a shitty person at times but am working on becoming better to myself and others. I could have chosen to know I've done and said less than favorable things without making any efforts to improve myself as a person. Which would you choose?

I don't regret, am ashamed, or feel bad my past, because those experiences brought me to who am today. I've been choosing to be the best version of myself so I don't cheat myself out of truly experiencing life. At one point, I constantly felt like I was lying to myself. Sometimes I still get little slivers of doubt cutting into me, but it passes.

I just realized there's a Korean pop group called Girls Generation (aka SNSD) that has a song titled "Karma Butterfly". Its lyrics have similar themes to what I think of as a Karma Butterfly. Nice to know I'm in good company. As a Karma Butterfly, you allow yourself to consume what's good for you, process it, and emerge as a beautiful being that nourishes itself with sweetness as it travels to many gardens.